5 dot Spirit Continues

Microwave examination: 7th semester

2008-12-01T10:40:00.000-08:00

Dear friends,

I wish to share small incident that happened today. Today I had exams for toughest paper that I have ever encountered in my college. I prepared well for the exams as I needed 20/70 marks to pass that examination to save my pride among my friends.All my friends had an intuition that paper may come hard and we may not be able to get 10-20 marks.To avoid that situation, we rote many things to save our breath.I rote the least..he he..as I thought nothing could be done.Anyways I tried my best to my ability.

Oh, I forget to say the subject name.That was "Microwave engineering".Let me tell you about this subject.
In 3th semester, we had a subject titled "EMT :Electromagnetic Theory".Each page that we had to read for that subject was full of formula's like"

Del ^ 2 = 1/r^2 del/del r {(r^2 del/del r)} + 1/ r^r sin(theta) del /del (theta) {(sin theta * del/del theta)} + 1/r*r sin^theta del^2/ del (theta)^2

We not only had to remember formula's but 2-3 page of it's derivation also.Some of them had more pages.:)Somehow we passed that examination by mugging these stupid formula's and when the result came , our whole batch took a breathe of liveliness that "EMT" is gone.God thank again, hope so we will never encounter this type of subject again.Speaking truly, I never encountered any practical applications of that subject till date.

Good news for 7th semester was that We had to study a simple subject "Microwave Engineering" that was considered to be Grandfather Grandfather of "EMT".Ohh my god...One equation can definitely relate these subjects:
Microwave Engineering = [EMT] to the power 101.
100 makes sense but this 1 is for extra burden that comes your way when you just hear about this subject.

Let's get back to today,
We all were prepared to cross this difficult phase, however some of us lost hope last night feeling that "Padhne se kuch hone waala to hain nahin , Jo padhte hain woh to kabhi aata hi nahin hai, ab kaun sa bhala hoga" but some of them took an option for night out to give their best in this examination.So , finally after some stupid things last night, our examination started at 2 pm, Room no 219, BIT Mesra.
Bad news was I entered late as I was revising for formula's that I had forgotten.With one pray, "God! I just need 20 marks, please give me this wish", I entered the classroom.The first shock came, when everyone was looking at me surprisingly as If I have done a big mistake. I tried to be sanguine, and tried to focus on the examination.Finally, I took a campaigning step to see the question paper.The Question paper here consists of 7 questions each having 14 marks, the duration for examination is 2 hrs sharp.

A student is required to answer any 5 of these.I tried to read the question from back.The 7th one, Ohh my god, I know that.I didn't have the courage to see other questions as I thought let's write 1 question beautifully that could fetch me 10 marks at least and even if I would not know the other answers, I would write some story, poems, or I will finish writing about my diary entry for rest of the pages that would definitely fetch me another 10 marks.Just half an hour concentration , and I could pass the exam.I wrote in the same way as I planned.30 min over, and I finished the last question.I took another bold step to see the 6th one but the answer came "NO..you don't know this" that somehow agitated me for a while. I tried for the next one, 5th one was the thing that I read yesterday.I completed in another 30 min.wow, now no Demon can fail me, that's what I thought.So, by this time 1 hr was gone, but unexpectedly something happened.Some of my friends started to leave the classroom not with smile but with a depiction of fear in their face. NO..NO....I tried to scream but I couldn't. I got afraid with what happened to them.After few more min, some more left.
"This question must be hard to crack and they must be expecting to fetch cut off marks to pass toughest paper: Microwave Engineering".I took a deep breathe and thought everything will turn out ok.I read the questions and this time as I whole.I just needed 3 out of 4 remaining questions to crack it that I had never expected.With 50 minutes remaining in hand and with luck too, i got exactly the 3 required. I exaggerated everything I knew and somehow wrote the remaining 3 in time. So hard battle to crack but i don't know how I did it.But the truth was I did it in time and I was very happy that my friends weren't able to do it which I did...I thought I must have some special cells..he he..I left the examination room and came back to the hostel.

Then I thought to inquire from my friends "Why did they left the examination so early and I was sitting till the end
One reply came : "The question was damn easy and only stupids like you can afford to sit for 2 hrs straight.We finished it in 1 hr"

I became a matter of joke for them..Everyone laughed at me ...And please you, ya I am talking to you, please do not laugh at me...:)

Message from the director of Spirit Continues

2008-10-02T20:16:00.000-07:00

To say that the lines written below are completely mine would be wrong. To be very true , This company is not created out of an idea but through the passion behind the idea. I say special thanks to all contributing members and especially "Yadav" from IIM Bangalore whose one statement really made a difference , ignited fire in my belly to follow my dreams. The statement is none other than "Finding passion of life is more important than working for some others thinking”. Sitting here at printing shop, Ranchi and before I say how our company has reached to such escalating heights that has made me feel proud to write these beautiful lines , I say I am "Pawan Kumar Gupta" and I hope that the day will come soon when our team will inspire a million of hearts .

"Sometimes our effort seems insignificant but always remember one thing, a ripple can bring a momentum anytime and produce a current that is insurmountable".

After getting 94.2 % marks in class X and 84.2% marks in class XII and after being unable to clear mains examination of IIT,I, a bookworm took admission in 9th ranked institute 'Birla Institute of Technology, Mesra ,Ranchi" in 2005.Everything went well and good as expected but this bookworm really missed one thing, something called "dreams”. I got 8.29 cgpa in first semester but I was not satisfied with that. Something stuck in my mind in 2nd semester, a term called "idea, creativity and innovation”. I felt as if "Life is like a hell without creativity”. Why not feel innovation, believe innovation and achieve innovation. I thought of an idea about 'new method of road traffic control system' and working on that idea for one year made me to get summer training in IIT kgp .In the mean while, many ideas came striking in my mind, and in the process I began to think that a day will come when I will have a place where I can make my own rules. So becoming an "Entrepreneur" was the best choice for me that ignited me to build 6-7 business plans, compromising in my studies, regular scolding from his parents, my elder brother. I tried to follow just one thing throughout my life at BIT Mesra "Idea, Idea and Idea”. After 3 years of engineering life was a great deal for me. Among the best was my training in IIM Calcutta in 2008 and my project named “Traffic Control system" ranked as "India's Top 8 electronics project" by Agilent Technologies at IIT Delhi. Before going to training at IIMC, I had already thought of business plans that I was supposed to do but somehow it did not work. Regarding technicals in electronics, chemical and mechanical engineering; many ideas came to my mind, some of them worked and some of them did not as per the rule of the game. For those ideas which worked, I got two PATENTS and two PATENT UNDER PROCESS till my 3rd year of engineering.And for those ideas which did not work, they gave me a beautiful experience of observing things deeply.

After loosing 6-7 business plans, I was definitely a failed man but I never accepted my failure, I was never defeated. I was a man with a feeling that "Somehow these incidents in my life will connect for something good in future. What really remained with me was my personal trait and my learning. I was a man with a feeling that I can motivate anyone, I can really charge anyone and can make him up in life. For my 2 years in engineering in 2nd and 3rd year, I experienced failure for so many times that it made me stiff, stubborn and a deep impression im my mind that "Always have control over your emotions and never ever give up”. The best thing that have happened in my life is that I don’t know how I got my summer training in IIM Calcutta. May be it was luck or it may be my hard work, I really don't know. That was awesome to be in a place with great scenic beauty and great people around.Well, I have described beauty of that place in my blog wwww.5dotspiritcontinues.blogspot.com.I remember that I was allotted room no. 206 in Annexe Hostel. The door next to me was allotted to 'Manish' from IIMK while the next door belonged to 'Yadav' from IIMB.I remember the very first day when I was grilled by the questions asked by Yadav. On saying "I would love to be an entrepreneur", Yadav asked "Then why do you want to go for management. All the great persons have done it without a management degree”. I don't have any good answer for that, I became shy to say that I need some time to think. I thought "May be I was following all these things blindly”. I used to interact with Yadav during evening and during the process, he became a very good friend of mine. At the same time, Anurag who was my group mate during training who was doing fellowship programme and Ritesh who was BIT alumni there became closer to me. I used to study and play during training but Yadav always told me one thing about management. "Local vendors are better managers than them; they can even sell a coal as diamond. The only difference between a person having a management degree and a local vendor is that 'A local vendor doesn’t know English’. That made me laugh out loud :).He used to say "Find out those things which you love to do, find the passion of life, do not work on some others idea”. That statement hit deep into my heart and made a difference to my life. That was the month of May when all these things happened in IIMC and my placement was about to start from 4th June'08.I was in dilemma and had no idea what I was going to do with my life since my all ideas failed previously and in addition, I had no plans to go for a job. I thought 'Lets wait for some time , till then let the bad phase continue. I always hoped that I will find something good very soon. My training went good although I know that I was very weak at technicals. Finally my training was completed and I was back to my alma mater, BIT Mesra. I was in confused state, I waited for sometime but I was not getting any idea. I almost have lost hope but slowly, I came to understand the things that were happening around me.

Some of the moments were like a precious stone to my life. One important incident that gave a deep impact to me was: Many friends came to me and said that "Please motivate me”. I always motivated them with the help of emotional intelligence and they went happy. After remembering this incident, something struck in my mind:"Can you really motivate people. Can you teach them emotional intelligence”. I got a sweet reply from my inner self "Yes”. This is how this company originated. I felt as if "Its the journey which gives you happiness and not necessarily the destination", I believed as if winning or loosing doesn't matter, the learning that you get from these events makes a difference. The attitude, confidence, personality, self-motivation, creativity, emotional intelligence will do a magic one day and I would to love to share those things to all people.

Then my school buddy Priyansh from Jaipur came in journey, Shailesh another school buddy joined me, Manoj from NIT Jamshedpur joined, guys from IIM C, IIM K, IIT kharagpur, IIT roorkie, IIT Powai, my elder sister Priyanka joined hands together to make this dream come true and in the process, I was chosen as the 'Director' of the company which increased my level of confidence and I really felt good to more responsible since my each decision reflects each and every member of our company. I owe my special thanks to Yadav, Priyansh, and Manoj for giving me immense support to make this company reach this stage. I would like to give heartfelt thanks to all the contributing members without whom our company would not have touched great heights. Thanks a lot everyone.

Regards,
Pawan Kumar Gupta
Managing Director
Spirit Continues

Some poems have the ability to change the world

2008-06-10T09:51:00.000-07:00

Peace in the world

When there will be right ideas to aspire, There will be right paths to choose
When there will be right paths to choose, there will be right destinations to achieve
When there will be right destinations to achieve, there will be peace in world.

When there will be right individual to accompany, there will be reinforcement in relationships. When there will be reinforcement in relationships, there will be right spirit for doing a work. When there will be right spirit for doing a work, there will be peace in world.

When there will be right music to listen to, there will be occurrence of happiness
When there will be occurrence of happiness, there will be ecstasy of mind
When there is ecstasy of mind, there will be peace in world.

When there will be right things to lay a hand on, there will be right things to sense
When there will be right things to sense, there will be freshness in thoughts
When there will be freshness in thoughts, there will be peace in the world.

When there will be right panorama to observe, there will be imagination of beautiful things,
When there will imagination of beautiful things, there will be a sense of pleasure within.
When there will be a sense of pleasure within, there will be peace in the world.

When there will be right food to taste, there will be feeling of sweetness in our throat
When there will be sweetness in our throat, there will be a sense of satisfaction in our hunger.
When there will be a sense of satisfaction in our hunger, there will be peace in this world.

When there will be right aroma to smell, there will be pleasant air to pass inside.
When there will be pleasant air to pass inside, there will be boost in our healthiness.
When there will be boost in our healthiness, there will be peace in the world.

When there will right character to build, there will be sense of fearlessness in ourselves
When there will be sense of fearlessness, there will be a right attitude to feel inside.
When there will be right attitude to feel inside, there will be peace in the world.

But, there is one big step before all these,

When there will be righteousness in heart, there will be harmony in hope
When there will be harmony in hope, there will be order in nation
When there will be order in nation, there will be peace in the world.

This poem is dedicated to my alma mater : BIT Mesra, Ranchi

Buddies: Time pass has a different meaning

2008-05-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

Blogging is always considered to be the greatest time pass one can ever do in our big cosmos that is probably 12800kms in diameter. Ohh…It seems great that I am a good science student. Let’s get back to the task, it’s always easy to hide your mistakes but it’s always soothing to say sorry to your misdeeds. I could have edited my last post but that would have lost the originality in me as well as the blog. I am apologizing to all my buddies, teachers of class X whose name slipped off from my mind while writing my previous post. Never mind acquaintances, I missed the keywords and keywords are always great as were you. I know this time again I will fail to notice some names but I have no problems at all in apologizing again. What do you think buddies? That’s kewlll …right.
My heartfel apologies to Gunjan, Ravi Sharma, Priyansh, Abhishek Singh, Randheer,Rohit Goenka, Vineeta, Arunima, Rakesh, Rudra mam. Sidhu mam, Subhash Sir (I think he taught me chemistry).Look below, the text below is a cough syrup that will help you to soothe your throat friends.

Its creepy here, Ohh my god!! I cannot abide by the rules so much, Things are not working as they were planned for, everything can come but the rewind less time never, Am I wasting this jiffy friend, or is it ok as I am or I should be doing some different things at this occasion, Do I look puzzled, bamboozled, confused, perplexed ,I don’t know what I am doing, Do traveling sounds right …Ohh yes or may be no, Do Gtalk wastes my time, Do orkutting is killing a technical mind, do I look good, how will my friends think, I will say no to watching movies on laptop, Someone please impose a ban on my playing habbits, Ohh...but sometimes I loose my friends also, Placements are about to start, do I need to start the things afresh or is it going good, novels are pretty good but I don’t find time buddy, is dreams going along with me or am I just moving in a crowd whose initials I can’t see nor I can see its end…

Believe me folks, one day will come when we will even forget to eat, clothes to wear, and far exceeding the limit we will one day block our nostrils to pass air through but one thing will not change. Well, giving respect to the originator of the word “concern”, I can unquestionably say that concern will not be right suited to it. But you just wait a while chap, I have found a better word. I call it ‘human stupidity and their dispensable worries, poignant about the things’. And you cannot hide that man, you are also one of them .And you will be delighted to know that you are not alone…we, our whole world is moving towards the same path. Sometimes, we call that race as “Rat race”. But my perspective about that is ‘It’s a mammoth in front of that”. Neither cat fits into that nor the dogs can take that position as it could be done by ‘donkey’ with a superb spirit. “Donkey”...wow…rightly fits into that spot again providing some logic behind it. At least those cats and dogs have brains behind them but donkeys don’t have. I know I am too harsh to say that but it’s true my dear friend.

Let’s feel a different world for a while, you will feel exceptional. Again trust me folks, leave this concern for a while, just forget everything, you are no one, you are no where, you don’t know anything, you don’t have any desires, just forget everything, now you have nothing left in your brain, a total blank, now breathe slowly ,now feel the darkness, a ray of hope comes, feel the nature, feel the birds, feel the sun, look sparrows are chirping, now the rain, butterflies are surrounding you making you feel essence of beauty, now remember the best events of your life, it may be spending time with friends, school days, loving someone, or preparing for exams, but feel the happiest days of your life, just close your eyes for a while feel the same until you find it….have you….now feel the god, the god is present in you, are you feeling eternal bliss, now open your beautiful eyes..

How are you feeling now? Are your nerves right, have you got energy in your blood, are you feeling the fragrances of happiness. I anticipate you must be feeling sensational, something different and something better to see some beautiful days of your life in short moment. Check out this for a while: http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=XuYi077Z5t0

Buddies! I have a simple question to ask to you? If we can experience pleasure for this little moment, why can’t we experience the same for whole of our life? Why aren’t we joyful, why aren’t we are in high spirits?Well, I wont be the right person to answer this but before I can suggest something, ask yourself ‘Why you are not happy’. Now the answer comes as:

This world is a ‘Donkey race’, whether you win or loose, believe me buddies…it hardly matters at all, no one can take the reality away that at the end of the game, whether it’s a looser or winner, they remain a donkey as they were before .Allies, its my solemn request: Do not opt for that path which seems to be easy because after some time, you will realize that’s “It is a pleasure in disguise”. It’s not true when you look forwards, but after achieving it, when you will look backwards, the things will be crystal clear in front of your head. It’s true someday either today or the next, you will realize that I was saying the right thing.

Some of us will be doctors one day, some of course engineers like me, some managers, some accountants, politicians are also not separate from it. But the question is we don’t know why we are running although we know that ‘while running sometimes we fall’…I request you, do not rush into the things, walking at a constant speed will serve your purpose and will be the right choice to feel the beauty of each and every experience that comes on our way. For the betterment of my friends and giving respect to my promise, I utter that “Do all the things, try all the things, have time for everything, let it be materialistic life, professional life, social life or spiritual life but with a feeling of pleasure attached to it”.

“Change is never easy. You fight to hold on or you fight to loose it”. But the key to excellence is the ability to fight. Success comes to those who still hang on to the path where others have left. Feel the power of rising above the individuals. Accomplish all the things, let it be your work, books , sports, music, movies, poetry, sleeping , fighting…well that is infinite in number and last but not the least, never forget ‘chatting’ and especially in Gtalk..heheJBuddies, believe me, my experience tells that everything is important in life, the thing is we do not realize it and whatever we do is always for our betterment unknowingly, unwantedly. Some of the examples that comes to my mind is sleeping, chatting, traveling, 2 hrs call in cell phone, sports or studies. Its sounds bizarre but I am not deceiving you. Taste the medicine of being active and mind it, we never wastes our time but sometimes we fail to recognize the importance of events in life.

Sleeping gives you mental stability, chatting soothes your mind, makes you humorous, traveling helps you to update yourself with the technologies going around the world, gives you pleasure that helps you to feel good, 2hrs call in cell phone helps you to learn the art of ‘how to talk to talk to people….for tech people…voice modulation can learnt through this…sports gives you the right attitude and the feeling of fearlessness…studies helps you to build your career…but it’s the smallest contributing agent of all. kaisa laga logic ?Rhetoric tha naa.

Feeling chill…right…so that’s what your old buddy Pawan can do right now for your betterment.
“Baaki aise Hum Sewa mein hemesha haazir hain…bas thodi si time ki kami hai”.Never forget this mantra, before I go to take a short walk round the campus,the key is " doing right things at right things is always a better choice. But never be obsessed about these things "because these are not the motto of a person but acts as a catalyst to help you to get what you want of your life…Now the logic can be easily drawn that we never wastes time. Experience the beauty of each and every moment of you life that comes on your way. Good luck chaps

Memories down the lane: Days in Hehal

2008-05-28T05:35:00.000-07:00

Greetings my old friends! I am feeling you all, I am feeling the strength that you all provided through those special moments that touched the core of each and every cells of my heart.Thanks wont be right word that would make me feel that I am doing justice to buddies that went around me through the days that were once a part of me.Well I have never lost those days and I promise buddies, I will never will.Those space and time has something to do with the days that has brought a man out of himself.Those 10 yrs feeling makes a awaken man feel that "somewhere his soul" is still in flowers, class rooms, with teachers, friends that were along the path of running river named "pawan".I never realized those wonderful 10 years created a small space in my heart when I was spending my childhood days.As the law of nature, since time has expanded ; space should also have expanded.But it never happened that way.

I am feeling lonely and regretful to say that I never thought of dear ones after I left a roman letter "X" and a english letter "D" but for the last one year I began getting closer to the memories that actually lifted my spirit up to write this small gift to all great persons like you all.Thanks to god ! These 10 fingers are not shaking now on keyboard but moving as smoothly as the heart beats smoothly providing life to all.Look buddy!
See thats sweet capital of jharkhand, go to that corner,you have DAV Hehal bus waiting for you to take you to a tour to special memories....thats too in Itki road, with great scenic beauty around and crossing over that Motel Ajay, you must have found a bridge now...hey look , thats two building there, one of them is superb with kids playing around in their school dresses,move down of that bus, we are getting late ...classes, teachers waiting for us...remember that 1st floor, a class down there titled "X D"...

Piyush you came here so early, sameer! where are you, Krishna with his tips and impressing girls, abhijeet...you got a new hairstlyle, hey D.Rohan..English master, Ravi...u arrived there.4 rows in a class...right half fixed for "Duniya ki sabse sariff ladkiyaan"...and left half for "Book worms..we were one of them"..Girls don't mind.And if a boy talked to a girl, that was considered to be a giant leap for mankind.

how stupid we were....itna padhayee...itna heavy competition as if those stupid books were the first part of life even before "taking air to breathe".Some of the mind blowing competitors are still spinning in my mind making me a confused person.I'm not sure whether I will remember all the names of old buddies, But this pure blood will atleast take a try:
Krishna, Piyush , Shilpee, Ravi sharma, Ankita bathwal, Sweta subudhi, swarna shekhar, Deepika verma, jyotna jha, divya rani, koi anjali thi, i don't know but sure koi manisha to thi,Nirmal, Abhijeet,Ravi kant , D Rohan, Manoj.......ohhhh I missed surubhi...Well the list goes on but I am feeling sorry for not remembering the names of other buddies that went on unseen paths and destinations unseen with me.I am their culprit who gave me a superb company for 10 years in hehal...Buddy! mind blowing were those days that gave me love to win over the toughest phase of my life.
Feeling myself in palm of god I promise I am very true to my heart and I could definetely say that I never found that real peace once I left Hehal.My spirit was always high during those days, although I never realised. I never needed anything except books and cricket those days but now I do that.Sometimes new friends, sometimes novels, sometimes TV shows, sometimes visiting new places...G talk is also one of them...I can definitely feel that these are just external factors to make your mind say that "You are okay and you have found eternal peace".I say I still have not found that, may be one of the big reasons is "my soul is still there in hehal classes, teachers , playgrounds, those small fights, bone-breaking crowds in school buses, those journey in scorched heat of sun, lectures from teachers, impression baazi to Mitali Madam , D banerjee, Pathak Sir, Krishnan Mam, Geography madam( forgot her name...sorry mam).

I can't lie and feeling the heat of memories down the lane, I accept that "I am incomplete without you all...May be I can reach great heights...I never know...he he, but always my soul and my body will be incomplete without you all".Although time has linearly moved but the space in my heart that you all capture has moved exponentially and I know it will never cover it as a whole.It would be great and I will feel less ordianary if this small gift reaches to my old friends, whose friendship I have never realised.Still I am not tired to write this blog in memories of my schools days but somewhere it has to end.Sometimes river also stops flowing.Accept that small wish from me but before leaving I will definitely say that "I love you all buddies" and will always love to go back...that's some of my memories down the lane...What's urs?

Sometimes irregular placing of dairy entries creates randomness

2008-05-19T14:48:00.000-07:00

Hello folks!
It looks weird to see myself writting this diary entry after a long period but being sanguine,I hope I will keep writting diary entries which is considered to be toughest thing to do in this big cosmos atleast for me and atleast for now.This day is that day that comes two days after saturday and two days before wednesday.Expecting you all to be having above average IQ and ofcourse having a specific term called as "a common sense",this day is monday; the most coolest day considered to be in sixth semester.But ironically today is the most bone-breaking day and ofcourse it has some reasons.Let's start with the bad parts which has happened to me and which is expected to happen today.
I was in home and woke up late in morning at 8:30 am ,removed my shadow of sleepiness and finally got out a mighty dream.For the next 3 hours,general routine subjects like brush,TV's,computers,music,food was a kind of thing that became alienate to me.Oh my god! I forgot to say you one thing "I have my FOCS Viva at 4:30pm today.This has baptised cool pawan to a person depicting a pressure cooker.Well I have certain reasons behind it and ofcourse that is hidden for now."ting dong" was it a door bell...no...mobile phone ring....no....some super waves from MTV...no....then guess what was that.No...cann't guess...ok I will tell you...that was analog clock ringing in a way that made me feel intense that someone was knocking in my area and saying "Mr.Pawan...a big donkey...where the hell are you...move fast...you have your bus at 12:00 pm at St Xaviers.ok...ok....ok...I'm going came the reply from me.
Well I started late but as we all know "Bad start doesnot mean a bad end".Same thing happened to me.Well now I am in bus which I was supposed to be.let's rewind the story:
I woke up late because I was having a awesome dream which was about a awesome love story between two awesome persons...one you can guess and one you cannot.The one which you can guess is ofcourse me and one which you cannot guess is i cannot tell.I missed some prime things in life just because I was studying for 3 hours to pgerepare for FOcs viva.I couldnot miss my bus although I was late just because of biggest recurring problem in earth which we call as "traffic"....I thought I've just managed to catch bus in time but traffic was playing a different game which made me feel that "I was early by a big margin of 50 minutes".That indicates that I could have started my journey 50 minutes later.Well life is as asual cool with lots lots of music around that could always be played in my Nokia N-series.

A journey which I have never realised

2008-05-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

Hey !Somebody said me that I am a person who can really shoot off the things...I just do not
believe in 1,2,3...a perfect 10 would be fine."Hey let's do it man, have a passion to do it,have
a feel that you make it" is far more rewarding than a feeling that "Ohh...Shit I have lost the
game,I could have done it,that's easy...I could have done it".Believe me, the path set by you
this way goes below the neck of person in front of you who in turn becomes ready to tease you...Well, the whole world believes the same way i.e the same traditional way of thinking but
most of the times correct you know.This is simply the term what our world says
"Excuses"...Atleast for this moment, I will go with it.

Just after few hours of sleep, then hanging around in bed, with a beautiful climate around, fingers on the keyboard and last but the least,the instrumental music...wow...'Yanni-Almost a whisper' playing in background gives you a wonderful mood to wonder new things.Imagine the
situation and you will feel the same sense of pleasure.Thinking passionately about it and writing
your memories in this blog is most astonishingly a wonderful feeling and as you have guesses,the web texts which i used to call 'blog' has added a word 'my' with itself.Now I feel proud to say
'this blod' as 'my blog'.

The moment I started to write the blog,It simply pissed me off.I was afraid to write a single
letter."how would it look,Do it fit with the other sentences, How do I feel when somebody sees
this and what if somebody says to me"If you dont know how to write a single line then why are you writing this blog...Leave it man...just Leave it...it's not your cup of tea".Too many times I have thought about this but somewhere in this long journey what really made to remove those fears of writting was that'I never left the idea of writting' and that really changed a person's fear to a boost in his confidence.

"Hey its my life and I am going to decide what I have to do with it.Do not do things just to please others because at the end of the day, what remains with you is you and you only..Just be
yourself,enjoy the heat of originality, you will feel good and sometimes your hobbies becomes a
passion of life which in turn becomes beacons of life".

The feeling that everything will happen good and you will make all your demands of life move like a jetcraft does 50% of the job.and rest 50% can be done enjoying your life like, physical exercises, movies, friends, travelling, rollick icecreams, Sprite, and ofcourse 3hrs of study.Isn't its cool to work like that making youself fully active, passionate about things which you like to do.That makes your life much easier doing all the things in right time, right places and with right people and ofcourse with lots of fun around you.

Visit this site please...Here I have uploaded my poem "Will there be one day"
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=XuYi077Z5t0

Returns to Malgudi Days !

2008-05-15T12:09:00.000-07:00

Something that soothes your mind, something that makes you feel uplifted, something that touches the soul of yours, something that appeases, something that takes your life in a different world, something that makes your senses in action , something that makes your eyes closed feeling the tune, something that makes you smell the art of pleasure, something that makes your hand to press those ten fingers to write a special memory that not only makes you feel sensational but it hopes to make the other companions feel the harmony of peace.I thing, object, matter, tune, music, feeling, or an excception whatever you call, but one thing is there and is there forever...wow...that's this that cannot be described by so many words..."hmm hmm hmm hmmmmm hmmmmm.......hmm hmm hmm hmmm hmmmmm hmm.....tanaa naa tanaa nana naa.....taanaa naa tana nana naa".....sounds something like that....Have we heard it, have it ever came across our head, have it been similar to me before, I feel I have heard this tune somewhere, thats something unique that makes your inner cells excited in harmony to the tune...Wait...Wait...Before your mind gets burst...this tune is...wait a moment...
I'm not going to tell it with nothing to gain....
Tell me what do you need it....
Well I need a promise from you...
You are also going to play the same tune and dance in accordance to that...
That's my pleasure...
That's so sillly you are: my dear...Let's get return to MALGUDI DAYS
Hip Hip Hurray...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDcUoS3IcCA

IIMs, Dreams, Bhagwad Gita !! Do they have something in common

2008-05-12T23:48:00.000-07:00

Feeling the heat of IIMs in IIMs is one of the dreams one can always imagine. But the good is not only in imagining but converting that dream into reality…By god’s grace, I know a person who has achieved it but he knows these things hardly matter…What matters is a path to spirituality, a total renunciation of worldly pleasures, a sense of satisfaction to the mind, eternal peace, knowing your dharma and performing the rituals to please the god. And nor having a materialistic approach to things, having a desire to achieve his dreams just to satisfy his ego that “I have to achieve it”.

This person was not supposed to utter these words but have you ever thought how he acquired this small but big knowledge about spiruality. Hey! I would like to thank god for it and then Indian Institute of management, Calcutta for giving that person an opportunity for internship and letting him to spend some quality time to spend his summer’08…About the knowledge whatever I have J about this strange subject, have got through reading some pages of great Mythology “Bhagwad Gita” in B. C. Bose Library, IIMC. And yes, of course this person is being called as “Mr Pawan” by those people whom he knows and also by those people whom he does not know.

Where to start and where to end it’s just a matter to representing the things in a systematic way but what I am about to say is “The feeling, the soul of a person that attaches to some place remains the same” and sometimes the feeling, the memories of a particular place becomes extraordinary, something that can always provide pleasure to your mind, satisfaction to your soul wherever you are, whenever you think. That’s I am expecting and about to share some of my feelings which I have experienced over here.

Can you imagine a place, somewhere 200 acres in area with 6 artificial lakes, hundreds of superb green trees, thousands of different varieties of flowers, lakhs of memories of people attached with it? In addition to it a multi-crores Auditorium, A gymnasium, hostels with all the prerequisites like canteen, common TV room, Voltas water cooler, washing machines in bathrooms, mosaic floors and rooms with 2 doors, an Almirah, spongy bed to sleep and super fast internet facility in all the rooms and all the other things that you can imagine and I have not mentioned here. About the scenic beauty of this place, it can simply blow your mind through it. That’s why sometimes I feel “I do not deserve this place so early in my life” but on the other side I also feel that “It never the luck that counts and you must have something special that has made you come to this great place to meet some great people”. I would definitely like to help all of friends to realize their dreams through a rule which was made by me on 3^rd march’07. That’s “BCPC” rule….sounds so weird…right. Some rhyming letters and must have some stupid meanings …I guess no…Let’s have a look and the priorities of these letters are in ascending order to realize your dreams:

B: Brilliancy [Less priority]

C: Courage to dare big

P: Patience to stay throughout

C: Consistency to maintain a standard [Highest Priority]

I will explain all these weird things in my next post but before going on I have something’s to share which I have learnt from Bhagwad Gita. The main theme is that your desires, your materialistic view of life, all those external factors that gives you alternate phases of happiness or sadness are a kind of being ignorant in life. Most of the persons including me do not have the right knowledge just because it’s very difficult to realize the truth which is called as Brahman. And the truth is about knowing the difference between reality and non-reality. All the things that changes itself through space and time, that remains temporary is non-real, i.e. all the external things like our body, objects are non-real and the things which is independent of time and space, which do not takes birth or do not die is real. The spirit, soul or Atman is a real thing. As a person changes his clothes, Atman/soul changes the body after the death of a body. And a wise is who that believes real in non-real things and non-real things in real things i.e. he knows the difference between the reality and non-reality. He knows that god is supreme and everything including our past, present, and our future is already planned by god and we are only the instruments to play the tune to please the god. This is self-realisation.This is spiruality.

I would urge to all my fellow friends not to realize your dreams in external factors just to satisfy just one thing which we call as ego that “I want to do it and I want to see myself doing it”…Again I say the same line “We should find some time to realize our self to gain the truth/ Brahman that could in turn help us to find eternal bliss”

Business plans : I will be implementing in mere future

2007-12-21T12:20:00.000-08:00

Some of my crazy works include:

1> Googly ladder : A multipurpose ladder system.
2> Intelligent traffic control system through lasers and GPS.
3> A one-way switch to control the different operations of a room.
4> Personal Savings Manager: A purse that keeps track of all the denominations [ mainly rupees]
in your purse to manage your accounts.
5> Medilance.com :Online medical registration

When you want something badly,that thing becomes yours.

Thanks planet !

2007-12-21T06:37:00.000-08:00

Somebody in cold and between rocks waving his hands to seek help from someone he knows.
"Hey dude! I'm sinking down here.This time : I wan't no joke".
Someone has rightly said: "Somethings come down to you when you don't even expect it".
Nothing much to say about him but i can say "I got a help i needed"

A demotivated person speaks:

2007-10-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

16th October'07

Doesn't know what has happened to me...all my dreams, reverie, plans , organisation, abilities , choices , potentional , potential to move away from crowd, power to act differently, spirit to think beyond any person...i have lost myself for the last three days...neither i'm preparing well for management...That forces me to go against this proverb "Let the fate to almighty"...I need to power myself, i need my blood to heat up, i need myself to pace up to compete all the persons.Let me be unparalled...let me be uncomparable...that's the only way i can provide answers to those who sometimes believed me....

Sorry cann't share to anybody...

Let's leave the topic...I've assigned Sumo a task to generate an idea for the split of the groups...5 DOTS...I rang him today morning but no one answered.May be he will be busy,
i will call him tonight..."Let's hope he finds a better solution for this and can think better than me"...

By the way i've to leave to home...since its already 7:11pm and soon,it will be hard to find auto from this place...I'm in CL and about to leave

12 hrs :720 minutes : zero output :Can it decide "Who I'm"

2007-10-14T02:16:00.000-07:00

14th october,07

Can someone help me??"6hrs yesterday and 6 hrs today" couldn't decide my fate.I tried my best to generate a creative idea to write some pages of novel but couldn't cope through.Have my brain stopped working for the last 2 days.Actually I'm thinking abt the idea to make the relations weak b/w the 5 dots.I wan't them to fight with their rigid hands.Ohh God!! help me.
Mr Creative is unable to generate an idea.Certainly, I'm not satisfied with my performance now.But 1 thing I know I'm that kind of person who will say "No" if he doesn't know the answer but he definately knows "how to find the answer and will find the answer".That's my belief in myself.

Shift + Delete : Does it matter ! !

2007-10-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

9th october,8:56pm

Hey what does this mean??This means the same what i'm trying to say...I'm afraid to remember that event what that "Alien" did to me last night.
"Knock Knock Knock"...Come on open the door else I'm leaving...Someone roared behind the door of R-n 197...Hey that's mine room..."What a attitude he has" I'll not open it.Come on!! If you want to leave...then leave.Just don't screw me.And mind it.
"Come on..Open else i will break the door"
"Ok...Alien what the matter"
He just came as if a light is coming in a dark room...Such was the force he brought...
"Leave this junk and move sideways"
Well, he meant my little n sweet laptop.I agreed to his wish.Ohh i forget to tell you about Alien...that's Kunal...the mastermind.

"Pawan you have to leave this idea...You have to forget about novel"

"What????"
"Have you gone insane...What the hell have happened to you"
Can you give me a good reason Why??

No can't say but you have to leave this idea and you have to back where you have been.

"Pawan...your whole work through the last one n half years is saved in D: drive...right"
"right...but why"

I wan't to play a game...Remember it's not a joke

Well,he opened a folder titled "5 dot spirit Continues"...Plenty of works has been done by you...
Then "Traffic Control project"in other folder....then business plans....then ad-designs...then photos.....I am again saying you I need to play a game...
Without even looking to me...he pressed "Shift+Del"

It seem as if my heartbeat stopped for a while.I was unable to take breathe since My 500 days days work was on a verge to be lost.

"See the option...Do you want to delete this folder permanently...Should i press YES"
He asked me...What the hell is this...I'm quite serious...I'm not going to leave you if you do what you said just now...Ohh my god!! he was serious this time..

"Pawan!! Will you leave this idea or not.You have to stop here"
"No...cann't...just remove your hand"

"I'm palying a game with you"
"I am here to play....I'm here to play well....I'm here to play well to win this game"

"This time I'm removing my hand but remember You have a little time to think...Ultimatum ends on the end of Dusshera..If i can do upto this level...I can even delete your all work...Mind it"

He left the room even without seeing at me and i kept feeling the same "He was trying to motivate me...Thanks Planet.....Thanks Alien....Thanks kunal"

First time i realised !!!

2007-10-06T23:40:00.000-07:00

6th october'07

Time:11 pm
Venue:My hostel room, Room No-197/H-7

"Cat among the pigeons" is the phrase i use speak and realise...and may be that's my destiny...I am satisfied with my preparation at CL...I was reading "Punctuations" and that was too worthful to have a dream in mind "IIMC and then IIMA"...Why this C comes before A... i myself don't know...may be during my summer training at IIT KGP...i went to see the panorma of IIMC...an 18 hrs dream-journey from KGP to KOL...well, lets back to where i was...
A calling tune in form of sinusoidal wave swayed across my ears...still cann't get it...i thought it to be fallacy...went through the CL book to complete my homework."Anandita mam is going to crush our batch" I had a fear in mind that compelled me to read...
Again the same tune dangled across my ears...This time i was not going to leave...it struck my attention..."Ohh Shit!! its the Rs 1600 cell that is swinging..."9430330225"...ohh thats PLANET's no..ohh sorry you don't know abt planet...well that's Kunal...that's the most intelligent,most inspiring person i have ever met as a friend...Something must be specific..."Hi..Shaurabh speaking...You need to come to 213 now"
"Hey Sumo! i have my personal work yaar...will come later"
"Come now"
"Ok"
"something must be serious...may be novel part"
I moved through the way to dreams"
"Kunal, Shaurabh, Gaurav" were waiting for me.
Why i'm using these lines..."Why cann't i use the other way...Planet,Sumo,Abhay...that's just 3 out of the team "5 dot Spirit Continues"...
"what's the matter"...I said to them
"well we needed to talk to you and we have been waiting for a great person like you for a long long moment"
"That's really great" I replied.
"To start with..i need a better name for Satish"
"Chunnu , tinku , Bokka , Gajhodar ..." and all those silly reply.
"No can't impressed...i need you all to be serious"
Valle
"What..I was shocked"
NO not great..but something striked me but it seems to be great...it can be...ohh it's really"
That's great!! who the hell told that expressing a feel that i was not at all impressed...
"That's me..Gaurav"
"Gaurav what u have done"...
That's like a miracle i was waiting for...Valle- A very nice pair with Naina...
Share what you did next to ?? the mob told
I was trying to call but a disastrous wave came and took the seriousness from the 3 dots...dots is actually my friends...
Pawan please "share"...even if you cann't u can debenture it...the went on to laugh..."That's the PJ part which i hate"...Then again the situation beacame worse and i had to leave...

Venue:My room again
Position:I was solving puzzles
"The nokia-Coconut Ringtone" swayed again...
"Valle ! please come back"...We were just joking...I agreed but the result was same...I had to leave again and this time, i was desperate to say them "Good-bye for today and Good-nite...i won't come"...But i didn't and left them in a hope to complete my homework..

Venue:My room again
Position:I was about to solve puzzles
Again the same ringtone..."i am not going to attend this...mind it" I thought.But cann't cope through and picked up the phone in a view that "might be they all serious"...
"Hey dude!! its gaurav...come" It's like he was crying...RAjiv too is there...
"No..if you all aren't serious...then why are you calling me..I'll complete it without your help...and please mind it"
"WE all 4 are waiting for you"
Finally i agreed since Rajiv was also there...
"Knock Knock at 213"
The door is open- Planet replied.
Finally i was shocked to see all of us:5 DOTS to be serious atlease FOR THE FIRST TIME abt the idea of novel...
I shared the idea which they don't know...
Hypoglobulinamea, suicide , harsh times, a need of help,naina, research , death, river, girls hostel, condulence and it went on for 2 hours straight....
The best part is that they were pretty impressed...Sumo provided with a plenty of idea ghost,haunting,Doctor Raj Malhotra...that proves him to be among the list of creative persons...
And the time came for the Planet's words."Write the last scene first that will make you feel about the climax and you will know where are you going"...In a way to discuss the last part some of them fall into deep sleep,some of them laughed,some of them dreamt, some of them started PJ's...some of them started to fight,some of them started to jump in a background of BLUES music,some of them ....
some of the.... and the list goes on
"MAY be we slept for a while but 5 DOTS will make the world believe that there faith in themselves at the difficult phases of life will surround only one idea "An Inspiration to million of hearts"
I FIRST TIME REALISED...

What should i choose !!!!

2007-09-22T23:50:00.000-07:00

Sunday..as usual CL classes...as usual i was late today...I should be there at 9:30am but being pawan and as usual a late comer...arrived there at 10:16 am i guess...classes off...solutions and TSD...something strange happened...i was caught by anandita mam...and invited to move to room no-4...well, i was surprized a little bit but thought let see what happens...somewhere you have to believe in "connecting the dots"...that's what i'm believing now...
There are two pawans as far as i know:
1>The pawan who was 1 and half years before
2>The pawan who belongs to this date...I cann't describe him in 1 or 2 lines...I need a long long page to say about him...
In short....i'm pawan who gives priority to his dreams...IIM A ....IIM C...completion of novel...business plans....patents...add-designs...high-profile...thinking in a way that other cannot dare to think...prizes ....prizes and prizes...
Let it be secret what happened in room-4..,will definately share in other blogs but on an overall i enjoyed a lot..

Swinging with tune !!!!!!

2007-09-16T22:43:00.000-07:00

17th sept,07......well long it had been from where i wrote my very last post...but i am thankful to god...."I'm back"...Tomorrow is DBMS mid-sem test....but no....and as usual "White elephant will remain white elephant"...not studying as usual.....and as usual not ruining this useful moment given to me by god...

"Live today as if this is the last day of your life"...If i remember well...said by my guru "Steve jobs"...still following it and still thinking abt dreams...if specific....creating business plan.."Medilance"..well can't share the secret with you...

"I'll live with pride and die with pride......but will not move with crowd....that i promise with you"...Ahh...One incident is hitting my mind as if someone one is playing volley ball over my head...
I was studying LCT(Linear control theory) some days before...dont think much...i was preparing for mid-sem...But one thing you can't believe " I was hanging on a bridge between the depths of life and death while studying LCT...Don't understand where i was studying...Come on guess...can't...ok...not in my room, not in terrace,not in corridor....but along the floor ousite the window in one of my friend's room....and the unique point was "It was street light on which i was relying to study the texts".....Then kamlendu came....surprised...n told " Pawan...you may die...that's not a place to read"....On the other side...if you fall...you may die...."well i was thinking about taking risks that time...and i am quite sure this will connect some dots in future"...I replied then..."I will not die...I can't die so easily...I'm swinging with the tune of life....someday life will swing according to my tune".....

Abt novel....just have written 19 pages...will write some pages soon...lets see how i shape it...

Me and IIMC

2007-06-29T11:44:00.000-07:00

Venue: IIT Kgp
Time : 00:10 am,30th june'07.

Such a duffer you are...and how can you do this...No bullet in the gun...not a single penny in your pocket...no hairs in your head...not an empire...nothing you have for now atleast....It's simply madness to follow "Paths unseen and destinations Unknown ;PUDU"...Hey its not the film "Ek chalis ki last local" that 2.5 crore is going to reverberated in your finger-tip.

"Will PUDU be a boon or bane for you"..."How can you reach IIMC tomorrow just for the sake of dreams...Such a intuitive feeling i have for now...And with such a fear in mind and having fate to almighty,i have recumbent to feel i have consummate quality of generating ideas and following my dreams...Well no doubt, i am certainly going to IIMC tomorrow i.e 30th june'07 where i see myself after 2 years...Last day, when i was visiting the site of Carrer Launcher, I saw a line written "Don't measure your success in terms of parameters defined by other human beings...measure it by the parameters defined by you only...and that will make you a happy person"...and and now when i retrospect that matter, i think ingratiated the most sense of it...

Hey this time I'm soporific now but i have to go to Electronics lab now...so bye bye...and remember "Its only personal aspiration that matters where you will stand the very next day" and "The question is not who is going to let me but the question is who is going to stop me"

jhinga lala hu...Sambha !!!

2007-06-18T10:30:00.000-07:00

worked with this site and really enjoyed a lot:
Business Idiom in English - Learn English Online at English-Test.net

"Waiting for one day"

2007-06-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

Is tihs me woh hsi wrtting teh psot, If yuo aks me I wlil tell yuo olny oen thnig bsos and i konw waht i am telnilg...."Its my fear that is forcing me to write but I will transform that fear into passion one day"