Buddies: Time pass has a different meaning

Blogging is always considered to be the greatest time pass one can ever do in our big cosmos that is probably 12800kms in diameter. Ohh…It seems great that I am a good science student. Let’s get back to the task, it’s always easy to hide your mistakes but it’s always soothing to say sorry to your misdeeds. I could have edited my last post but that would have lost the originality in me as well as the blog. I am apologizing to all my buddies, teachers of class X whose name slipped off from my mind while writing my previous post. Never mind acquaintances, I missed the keywords and keywords are always great as were you. I know this time again I will fail to notice some names but I have no problems at all in apologizing again. What do you think buddies? That’s kewlll …right.
My heartfel apologies to Gunjan, Ravi Sharma, Priyansh, Abhishek Singh, Randheer,Rohit Goenka, Vineeta, Arunima, Rakesh, Rudra mam. Sidhu mam, Subhash Sir (I think he taught me chemistry).Look below, the text below is a cough syrup that will help you to soothe your throat friends.

Its creepy here, Ohh my god!! I cannot abide by the rules so much, Things are not working as they were planned for, everything can come but the rewind less time never, Am I wasting this jiffy friend, or is it ok as I am or I should be doing some different things at this occasion, Do I look puzzled, bamboozled, confused, perplexed ,I don’t know what I am doing, Do traveling sounds right …Ohh yes or may be no, Do Gtalk wastes my time, Do orkutting is killing a technical mind, do I look good, how will my friends think, I will say no to watching movies on laptop, Someone please impose a ban on my playing habbits, Ohh...but sometimes I loose my friends also, Placements are about to start, do I need to start the things afresh or is it going good, novels are pretty good but I don’t find time buddy, is dreams going along with me or am I just moving in a crowd whose initials I can’t see nor I can see its end…

Believe me folks, one day will come when we will even forget to eat, clothes to wear, and far exceeding the limit we will one day block our nostrils to pass air through but one thing will not change. Well, giving respect to the originator of the word “concern”, I can unquestionably say that concern will not be right suited to it. But you just wait a while chap, I have found a better word. I call it ‘human stupidity and their dispensable worries, poignant about the things’. And you cannot hide that man, you are also one of them .And you will be delighted to know that you are not alone…we, our whole world is moving towards the same path. Sometimes, we call that race as “Rat race”. But my perspective about that is ‘It’s a mammoth in front of that”. Neither cat fits into that nor the dogs can take that position as it could be done by ‘donkey’ with a superb spirit. “Donkey”...wow…rightly fits into that spot again providing some logic behind it. At least those cats and dogs have brains behind them but donkeys don’t have. I know I am too harsh to say that but it’s true my dear friend.

Let’s feel a different world for a while, you will feel exceptional. Again trust me folks, leave this concern for a while, just forget everything, you are no one, you are no where, you don’t know anything, you don’t have any desires, just forget everything, now you have nothing left in your brain, a total blank, now breathe slowly ,now feel the darkness, a ray of hope comes, feel the nature, feel the birds, feel the sun, look sparrows are chirping, now the rain, butterflies are surrounding you making you feel essence of beauty, now remember the best events of your life, it may be spending time with friends, school days, loving someone, or preparing for exams, but feel the happiest days of your life, just close your eyes for a while feel the same until you find it….have you….now feel the god, the god is present in you, are you feeling eternal bliss, now open your beautiful eyes..

How are you feeling now? Are your nerves right, have you got energy in your blood, are you feeling the fragrances of happiness. I anticipate you must be feeling sensational, something different and something better to see some beautiful days of your life in short moment. Check out this for a while: http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=XuYi077Z5t0

Buddies! I have a simple question to ask to you? If we can experience pleasure for this little moment, why can’t we experience the same for whole of our life? Why aren’t we joyful, why aren’t we are in high spirits?Well, I wont be the right person to answer this but before I can suggest something, ask yourself ‘Why you are not happy’. Now the answer comes as:

This world is a ‘Donkey race’, whether you win or loose, believe me buddies…it hardly matters at all, no one can take the reality away that at the end of the game, whether it’s a looser or winner, they remain a donkey as they were before .Allies, its my solemn request: Do not opt for that path which seems to be easy because after some time, you will realize that’s “It is a pleasure in disguise”. It’s not true when you look forwards, but after achieving it, when you will look backwards, the things will be crystal clear in front of your head. It’s true someday either today or the next, you will realize that I was saying the right thing.

Some of us will be doctors one day, some of course engineers like me, some managers, some accountants, politicians are also not separate from it. But the question is we don’t know why we are running although we know that ‘while running sometimes we fall’…I request you, do not rush into the things, walking at a constant speed will serve your purpose and will be the right choice to feel the beauty of each and every experience that comes on our way. For the betterment of my friends and giving respect to my promise, I utter that “Do all the things, try all the things, have time for everything, let it be materialistic life, professional life, social life or spiritual life but with a feeling of pleasure attached to it”.

“Change is never easy. You fight to hold on or you fight to loose it”. But the key to excellence is the ability to fight. Success comes to those who still hang on to the path where others have left. Feel the power of rising above the individuals. Accomplish all the things, let it be your work, books , sports, music, movies, poetry, sleeping , fighting…well that is infinite in number and last but not the least, never forget ‘chatting’ and especially in Gtalk..heheJBuddies, believe me, my experience tells that everything is important in life, the thing is we do not realize it and whatever we do is always for our betterment unknowingly, unwantedly. Some of the examples that comes to my mind is sleeping, chatting, traveling, 2 hrs call in cell phone, sports or studies. Its sounds bizarre but I am not deceiving you. Taste the medicine of being active and mind it, we never wastes our time but sometimes we fail to recognize the importance of events in life.

Sleeping gives you mental stability, chatting soothes your mind, makes you humorous, traveling helps you to update yourself with the technologies going around the world, gives you pleasure that helps you to feel good, 2hrs call in cell phone helps you to learn the art of ‘how to talk to talk to people….for tech people…voice modulation can learnt through this…sports gives you the right attitude and the feeling of fearlessness…studies helps you to build your career…but it’s the smallest contributing agent of all. kaisa laga logic ?Rhetoric tha naa.

Feeling chill…right…so that’s what your old buddy Pawan can do right now for your betterment.
“Baaki aise Hum Sewa mein hemesha haazir hain…bas thodi si time ki kami hai”.Never forget this mantra, before I go to take a short walk round the campus,the key is " doing right things at right things is always a better choice. But never be obsessed about these things "because these are not the motto of a person but acts as a catalyst to help you to get what you want of your life…Now the logic can be easily drawn that we never wastes time. Experience the beauty of each and every moment of you life that comes on your way. Good luck chaps

Memories down the lane: Days in Hehal

Greetings my old friends! I am feeling you all, I am feeling the strength that you all provided through those special moments that touched the core of each and every cells of my heart.Thanks wont be right word that would make me feel that I am doing justice to buddies that went around me through the days that were once a part of me.Well I have never lost those days and I promise buddies, I will never will.Those space and time has something to do with the days that has brought a man out of himself.Those 10 yrs feeling makes a awaken man feel that "somewhere his soul" is still in flowers, class rooms, with teachers, friends that were along the path of running river named "pawan".I never realized those wonderful 10 years created a small space in my heart when I was spending my childhood days.As the law of nature, since time has expanded ; space should also have expanded.But it never happened that way.

I am feeling lonely and regretful to say that I never thought of dear ones after I left a roman letter "X" and a english letter "D" but for the last one year I began getting closer to the memories that actually lifted my spirit up to write this small gift to all great persons like you all.Thanks to god ! These 10 fingers are not shaking now on keyboard but moving as smoothly as the heart beats smoothly providing life to all.Look buddy!
See thats sweet capital of jharkhand, go to that corner,you have DAV Hehal bus waiting for you to take you to a tour to special memories....thats too in Itki road, with great scenic beauty around and crossing over that Motel Ajay, you must have found a bridge now...hey look , thats two building there, one of them is superb with kids playing around in their school dresses,move down of that bus, we are getting late ...classes, teachers waiting for us...remember that 1st floor, a class down there titled "X D"...

Piyush you came here so early, sameer! where are you, Krishna with his tips and impressing girls, abhijeet...you got a new hairstlyle, hey D.Rohan..English master, Ravi...u arrived there.4 rows in a class...right half fixed for "Duniya ki sabse sariff ladkiyaan"...and left half for "Book worms..we were one of them"..Girls don't mind.And if a boy talked to a girl, that was considered to be a giant leap for mankind.

how stupid we were....itna padhayee...itna heavy competition as if those stupid books were the first part of life even before "taking air to breathe".Some of the mind blowing competitors are still spinning in my mind making me a confused person.I'm not sure whether I will remember all the names of old buddies, But this pure blood will atleast take a try:
Krishna, Piyush , Shilpee, Ravi sharma, Ankita bathwal, Sweta subudhi, swarna shekhar, Deepika verma, jyotna jha, divya rani, koi anjali thi, i don't know but sure koi manisha to thi,Nirmal, Abhijeet,Ravi kant , D Rohan, Manoj.......ohhhh I missed surubhi...Well the list goes on but I am feeling sorry for not remembering the names of other buddies that went on unseen paths and destinations unseen with me.I am their culprit who gave me a superb company for 10 years in hehal...Buddy! mind blowing were those days that gave me love to win over the toughest phase of my life.
Feeling myself in palm of god I promise I am very true to my heart and I could definetely say that I never found that real peace once I left Hehal.My spirit was always high during those days, although I never realised. I never needed anything except books and cricket those days but now I do that.Sometimes new friends, sometimes novels, sometimes TV shows, sometimes visiting new places...G talk is also one of them...I can definitely feel that these are just external factors to make your mind say that "You are okay and you have found eternal peace".I say I still have not found that, may be one of the big reasons is "my soul is still there in hehal classes, teachers , playgrounds, those small fights, bone-breaking crowds in school buses, those journey in scorched heat of sun, lectures from teachers, impression baazi to Mitali Madam , D banerjee, Pathak Sir, Krishnan Mam, Geography madam( forgot her name...sorry mam).

I can't lie and feeling the heat of memories down the lane, I accept that "I am incomplete without you all...May be I can reach great heights...I never know...he he, but always my soul and my body will be incomplete without you all".Although time has linearly moved but the space in my heart that you all capture has moved exponentially and I know it will never cover it as a whole.It would be great and I will feel less ordianary if this small gift reaches to my old friends, whose friendship I have never realised.Still I am not tired to write this blog in memories of my schools days but somewhere it has to end.Sometimes river also stops flowing.Accept that small wish from me but before leaving I will definitely say that "I love you all buddies" and will always love to go back...that's some of my memories down the lane...What's urs?

Sometimes irregular placing of dairy entries creates randomness

Hello folks!
It looks weird to see myself writting this diary entry after a long period but being sanguine,I hope I will keep writting diary entries which is considered to be toughest thing to do in this big cosmos atleast for me and atleast for now.This day is that day that comes two days after saturday and two days before wednesday.Expecting you all to be having above average IQ and ofcourse having a specific term called as "a common sense",this day is monday; the most coolest day considered to be in sixth semester.But ironically today is the most bone-breaking day and ofcourse it has some reasons.Let's start with the bad parts which has happened to me and which is expected to happen today.
I was in home and woke up late in morning at 8:30 am ,removed my shadow of sleepiness and finally got out a mighty dream.For the next 3 hours,general routine subjects like brush,TV's,computers,music,food was a kind of thing that became alienate to me.Oh my god! I forgot to say you one thing "I have my FOCS Viva at 4:30pm today.This has baptised cool pawan to a person depicting a pressure cooker.Well I have certain reasons behind it and ofcourse that is hidden for now."ting dong" was it a door bell...no...mobile phone ring....no....some super waves from MTV...no....then guess what was that.No...cann't guess...ok I will tell you...that was analog clock ringing in a way that made me feel intense that someone was knocking in my area and saying "Mr.Pawan...a big donkey...where the hell are you...move fast...you have your bus at 12:00 pm at St Xaviers.ok...ok....ok...I'm going came the reply from me.
Well I started late but as we all know "Bad start doesnot mean a bad end".Same thing happened to me.Well now I am in bus which I was supposed to be.let's rewind the story:
I woke up late because I was having a awesome dream which was about a awesome love story between two awesome persons...one you can guess and one you cannot.The one which you can guess is ofcourse me and one which you cannot guess is i cannot tell.I missed some prime things in life just because I was studying for 3 hours to pgerepare for FOcs viva.I couldnot miss my bus although I was late just because of biggest recurring problem in earth which we call as "traffic"....I thought I've just managed to catch bus in time but traffic was playing a different game which made me feel that "I was early by a big margin of 50 minutes".That indicates that I could have started my journey 50 minutes later.Well life is as asual cool with lots lots of music around that could always be played in my Nokia N-series.

A journey which I have never realised

Hey !Somebody said me that I am a person who can really shoot off the things...I just do not
believe in 1,2,3...a perfect 10 would be fine."Hey let's do it man, have a passion to do it,have
a feel that you make it" is far more rewarding than a feeling that "Ohh...Shit I have lost the
game,I could have done it,that's easy...I could have done it".Believe me, the path set by you
this way goes below the neck of person in front of you who in turn becomes ready to tease you...Well, the whole world believes the same way i.e the same traditional way of thinking but
most of the times correct you know.This is simply the term what our world says
"Excuses"...Atleast for this moment, I will go with it.

Just after few hours of sleep, then hanging around in bed, with a beautiful climate around, fingers on the keyboard and last but the least,the instrumental music...wow...'Yanni-Almost a whisper' playing in background gives you a wonderful mood to wonder new things.Imagine the
situation and you will feel the same sense of pleasure.Thinking passionately about it and writing
your memories in this blog is most astonishingly a wonderful feeling and as you have guesses,the web texts which i used to call 'blog' has added a word 'my' with itself.Now I feel proud to say
'this blod' as 'my blog'.

The moment I started to write the blog,It simply pissed me off.I was afraid to write a single
letter."how would it look,Do it fit with the other sentences, How do I feel when somebody sees
this and what if somebody says to me"If you dont know how to write a single line then why are you writing this blog...Leave it man...just Leave it...it's not your cup of tea".Too many times I have thought about this but somewhere in this long journey what really made to remove those fears of writting was that'I never left the idea of writting' and that really changed a person's fear to a boost in his confidence.


"Hey its my life and I am going to decide what I have to do with it.Do not do things just to please others because at the end of the day, what remains with you is you and you only..Just be
yourself,enjoy the heat of originality, you will feel good and sometimes your hobbies becomes a
passion of life which in turn becomes beacons of life".

The feeling that everything will happen good and you will make all your demands of life move like a jetcraft does 50% of the job.and rest 50% can be done enjoying your life like, physical exercises, movies, friends, travelling, rollick icecreams, Sprite, and ofcourse 3hrs of study.Isn't its cool to work like that making youself fully active, passionate about things which you like to do.That makes your life much easier doing all the things in right time, right places and with right people and ofcourse with lots of fun around you.

Visit this site please...Here I have uploaded my poem "Will there be one day"
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=XuYi077Z5t0

Returns to Malgudi Days !

Something that soothes your mind, something that makes you feel uplifted, something that touches the soul of yours, something that appeases, something that takes your life in a different world, something that makes your senses in action , something that makes your eyes closed feeling the tune, something that makes you smell the art of pleasure, something that makes your hand to press those ten fingers to write a special memory that not only makes you feel sensational but it hopes to make the other companions feel the harmony of peace.I thing, object, matter, tune, music, feeling, or an excception whatever you call, but one thing is there and is there forever...wow...that's this that cannot be described by so many words..."hmm hmm hmm hmmmmm hmmmmm.......hmm hmm hmm hmmm hmmmmm hmm.....tanaa naa tanaa nana naa.....taanaa naa tana nana naa".....sounds something like that....Have we heard it, have it ever came across our head, have it been similar to me before, I feel I have heard this tune somewhere, thats something unique that makes your inner cells excited in harmony to the tune...Wait...Wait...Before your mind gets burst...this tune is...wait a moment...
I'm not going to tell it with nothing to gain....
Tell me what do you need it....
Well I need a promise from you...
You are also going to play the same tune and dance in accordance to that...
That's my pleasure...
That's so sillly you are: my dear...Let's get return to MALGUDI DAYS
Hip Hip Hurray...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDcUoS3IcCA

IIMs, Dreams, Bhagwad Gita !! Do they have something in common

Feeling the heat of IIMs in IIMs is one of the dreams one can always imagine. But the good is not only in imagining but converting that dream into reality…By god’s grace, I know a person who has achieved it but he knows these things hardly matter…What matters is a path to spirituality, a total renunciation of worldly pleasures, a sense of satisfaction to the mind, eternal peace, knowing your dharma and performing the rituals to please the god. And nor having a materialistic approach to things, having a desire to achieve his dreams just to satisfy his ego that “I have to achieve it”.

This person was not supposed to utter these words but have you ever thought how he acquired this small but big knowledge about spiruality. Hey! I would like to thank god for it and then Indian Institute of management, Calcutta for giving that person an opportunity for internship and letting him to spend some quality time to spend his summer’08…About the knowledge whatever I have J about this strange subject, have got through reading some pages of great Mythology “Bhagwad Gita” in B. C. Bose Library, IIMC. And yes, of course this person is being called as “Mr Pawan” by those people whom he knows and also by those people whom he does not know.

Where to start and where to end it’s just a matter to representing the things in a systematic way but what I am about to say is “The feeling, the soul of a person that attaches to some place remains the same” and sometimes the feeling, the memories of a particular place becomes extraordinary, something that can always provide pleasure to your mind, satisfaction to your soul wherever you are, whenever you think. That’s I am expecting and about to share some of my feelings which I have experienced over here.

Can you imagine a place, somewhere 200 acres in area with 6 artificial lakes, hundreds of superb green trees, thousands of different varieties of flowers, lakhs of memories of people attached with it? In addition to it a multi-crores Auditorium, A gymnasium, hostels with all the prerequisites like canteen, common TV room, Voltas water cooler, washing machines in bathrooms, mosaic floors and rooms with 2 doors, an Almirah, spongy bed to sleep and super fast internet facility in all the rooms and all the other things that you can imagine and I have not mentioned here. About the scenic beauty of this place, it can simply blow your mind through it. That’s why sometimes I feel “I do not deserve this place so early in my life” but on the other side I also feel that “It never the luck that counts and you must have something special that has made you come to this great place to meet some great people”. I would definitely like to help all of friends to realize their dreams through a rule which was made by me on 3^rd march’07. That’s “BCPC” rule….sounds so weird…right. Some rhyming letters and must have some stupid meanings …I guess no…Let’s have a look and the priorities of these letters are in ascending order to realize your dreams:

B: Brilliancy [Less priority]

C: Courage to dare big

P: Patience to stay throughout

C: Consistency to maintain a standard [Highest Priority]

I will explain all these weird things in my next post but before going on I have something’s to share which I have learnt from Bhagwad Gita. The main theme is that your desires, your materialistic view of life, all those external factors that gives you alternate phases of happiness or sadness are a kind of being ignorant in life. Most of the persons including me do not have the right knowledge just because it’s very difficult to realize the truth which is called as Brahman. And the truth is about knowing the difference between reality and non-reality. All the things that changes itself through space and time, that remains temporary is non-real, i.e. all the external things like our body, objects are non-real and the things which is independent of time and space, which do not takes birth or do not die is real. The spirit, soul or Atman is a real thing. As a person changes his clothes, Atman/soul changes the body after the death of a body. And a wise is who that believes real in non-real things and non-real things in real things i.e. he knows the difference between the reality and non-reality. He knows that god is supreme and everything including our past, present, and our future is already planned by god and we are only the instruments to play the tune to please the god. This is self-realisation.This is spiruality.

I would urge to all my fellow friends not to realize your dreams in external factors just to satisfy just one thing which we call as ego that “I want to do it and I want to see myself doing it”…Again I say the same line “We should find some time to realize our self to gain the truth/ Brahman that could in turn help us to find eternal bliss”